We had so many plans for our move to South Carolina last year. Prayerfully, we bought a camper to live in while we searched for our next house, thinking it would be only a few months. Here we are more than six months later, building a house instead.
Prayerfully, we planned to keep costs down in order to pay off the mortgage quickly and get out of debt as soon as possible. We hoped to build the basic structure and finish the inside while living in the house, but building codes and the bank requirements won’t allow us to do that.
We planned to move the camper onto the land and cut our costs even more by eliminating the campground rent. Rain and more rain, plus Duke Energy digging up the driveway (and not repairing it) has put an indefinite hold on that plan.
Many times when things don’t go as I think they should, I start questioning whether I really allowed God to direct my path. Did I really hear Him?
This adventure has made me realize that I shouldn’t make assumptions about the outcome when we follow God’s direction. Just because something isn’t easy or perfect doesn’t mean it is outside His will. His purposes are greater and wider and deeper than mine and frankly, it isn’t all about me.
Here’s an example. It doesn’t seem unreasonable to expect that our driveway would be the path for construction deliveries, does it? However, our driveway is such a disaster that it can’t be driven on at all. No one can really even walk on it.
Matt, who is building a house next door, is graciously allowing us to use his driveway and make a path through the woods to our house. God is about relationships and I just keep thinking about how that path between homes is a symbol of relationship. It’s a bit humbling to need to rely on someone else’s grace to meet your needs. But that’s just what I do every day with God, even if I don’t always acknowledge it.
Richard apologized to our framing contractor for the difficulties in getting lumber to the house and the deep, deep mud they had to work in. Know what he said in response? “No, thank you for giving me the work.” Difficulties for me may be blessings for someone else.
Making assumptions about WHY God directs me a certain way usually causes me to either question whether I heard correctly, or to not even obey the nudging. I need to step out in faith more, and when things don’t go as I assume they will, to hold onto that faith, trusting that God is indeed directing my steps. Because it isn’t all about me.
Have you made a step of faith that didn’t turn out as you expected?